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    2018 Reflections | 2019 Intentions

    Honestly, 2018 was a struggle. I spent the first 5 months in a disillusioned haze, hoping that my toxic relationship would magically resolve itself so we could be happy like we were at the initial stages of it. It felt like a waste of 5 months, as I tamed my spirits because he prefered it that way. I went out less, I traveled less, I disconnected from my friends, and didn’t make plans for myself so I could wait up for him. I spent a few weeks in Sioux Falls and the rest of the time mostly in Austin with the guy that wanted to clip my wings. We were…

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    Moving is hard // thanksgiving

    I didn’t move to Denver with an ultimate purpose, or even a job at all. Similar to many I was simply looking for a change of scenery and Colorado scenery couldn’t be anymore different than Texas. So I bought a row home here 2.5 years ago without a clue as to what I would do with it. It was renting out so well that I decided to stay on the road for 2 more years before it became tiresome. I’m trying to make a new state my home and it is far more difficult to start from scratch than I ever imagined. I started here with 2 friends, one from…

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    My Relationship with Music

    I might not be able to find a relationship with another human but I have an extraordinary one with music and boy do we have history. It’s difficult to express how much I love music, although who doesn’t right? (Actually… random side note: A study recorded that 3-5% of people just don’t care for music at all, aka musical anhedonia. Which immediately eliminates them from my dating pool…) I digress! As I mentioned in my previous music post, I grew up with my mother blasting her favorite arias (opera pieces) at 7am every Saturday to wake me up. I started singing in choir as soon as I could around 10…

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    Moving Forward

    Well kittens, I’m back to square 1. [I feel like an episode of Sex & The City as I type this from a rural Texas hotel room that I’m in for work.] I am now accepting applications for exciting dates!! I haven’t actually pursued dating in what feels like years now (wondering if I ever actually pursued dating at all)… but after convincing someone I was emotionally unavailable over the summer then being devastated when he found someone else, I realized that I was ready to move past the trauma of my previous ex that wore me down to nothing. Let’s do this Denver! omg… I forgot how to date…

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    Dirty 30 | goals

    I have been procrastinating writing HARD lately. Honestly, because it feels vulnerable and I’m afraid to put myself out there in a way that has potential to be ridiculed. This fear is in direct contradiction though to what I feel I have learned with approaching a new decade, to give less fucks. I’m ready to throw caution to the wind and put my words to “paper”. I have started this blog post at least 3 times now from, 3 weeks into my 30’s, 6 weeks… ok, so over 2 months into my 30’s now…. I feel that I can finally accurately depict what they feel like. I realize it’s just…